Making appointments.

I have an appointment Monday for an MRI. It's not my first. Last time I was supposed to get one I had a panic attack and ran out of the room. Let's hope I do better this time. My doctor explained that the MRI is just checking to make sure there isn't anything out of the ordinary in my brain. All the tests are just to get ready for the surgery. The next week I have an appointment for a PET scan. Ethan heard me on the phone and asked: "Why do you need that test? The dog scan or whatever?" Well, because it shows if there are any abnormalities on the brain tissue. Scars or tumors. PET scans are also used for cancer patients. It's a little frightening. At this moment I am doing ok. I had a little freak out earlier because it's sort of terrifying to go through all this. However I will continue to stay strong and keep my head up. The thing that scares me the most right now is what will happen in the days following the surgery. But I can't think about that and scare myself out of it. I need to do this. I NEED to be seizure free. For myself, my family, and quality of life. It's held me back for so long and I'm done. I've had enough. I am keeping this blog up as much as I can. As of today I don't have a surgery date- just 'Soon'. Probably April or May. I have a few other things to get tested and deal with before I am down for that time. I'll be in the hospital about 10 days and will be home for lot's of healing before I am back on my feet. Mom will be here helping for a couple weeks. It will be stressful on my family. I know that. If you see them, give them a high five for staying strong with me. -Mimi